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The vortex is the door-opener to deep depression, because it’s right at the point where you cross over into something worse. This is where the mind becomes a nagging partner, and the weight 

of depression gets heavier. You know it’s changing, because the yoke gets heavier, and the symptoms change: the symptoms have  piggy backed on each other. The initial symptoms of depression are  like door openers. The heavier weight, for example, can take me  from sadness to self-loathing, from loneliness to feelings of being  unloved. No one cares about me. And then, heavier can become: I want to kill myself.